This last two months have been the worst in one respect and the best in another.
As you may know, my best friend died recently. I thought I could handle it, but gradually over time I stopped going out, I had anxiety, I didn't wash or shower for days on end, I didn't eat. And before I knew it, I was in full blown depression.
You might find it strange that a 6ft 3 guy crys himself to sleep every night, but if you've ever suffered depression I guarantee that you would choose physical pain over emotional pain any day!
Anyway, through this dark time I kept in touch with 1 person, everyday without fail. I've known her since February maybe early march. I had an immediate connection with this girl, and throughout everything i've been though, she's been there to reassure me that things would get better. I believed her.
I used to think that this online love thing was bullshit, just idiots that couldn't find a girlfriend. I was wrong because I now find myself in this situation. I look forward to hearing from her everyday, even the days where I don't want to talk to anyone.
I always said that I couldn't tell someone I'd never met that I loved them. But overtime I've got to know her so well, and visa versa. I think we have an amazing connection. There is nothing I wouldn't share with her.
She is my world, my night, my day. And yes, I love her.
for L
