Today is a Good Day.

When taking drugs there is no such thing as a good day. There are plenty of bad days, and days where you try to convince yourself they were good, but really they were just hassle free, in other words, those days you had drugs and didn't have to go looking.

I never thought I could be happy. I always had to have material things in my life. I could never sit still, always looking for something else, something more, never content with what I had. The thought of living without drugs in my life was more scary than the thought of living an addict for the rest of my life.

I've got to know myself this last year more than I have in my entire life. I know myself, I now know the reasons behind my urge to escape life day after day. I realize things about myself that I was too scared to find out before and as a result I am content. I stop to smell the roses. I have nothing, but at the same time I have everything I ever wanted. I laugh on a daily basis. I cry. I feel, and I love.

  I took a lot of things for granted in my life, but that is in the past. I'm happy to be alive, today is a good day.